新年快乐

今天是12月31日
今天开始
有不同的人生
过往的伤心事
全都将被遗弃
迎来新的生活

还有一个小时26分钟
迈入2012年
希望今年的我
会过得很好

谢谢你的出现
给了我
好多好多的惊喜

希望新的一年里
大家都能开开心心
快快乐乐
幸福的过

新年快乐

19/12/2011

曾经
可以傻傻的

他说：头发别削薄，别剪，厚点，长点好看
可以忍了几个月头发厚到像狮子那样
都不敢剪

头发也故意染接近的发色
深怕他不喜欢

现在
头发削薄了
今年的发色
Copper Red

即使削薄了
还是蛮直的嘛

谢谢这位陌生人
让我傻过

18/12/2011

我不难过了 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残忍理由
当我了解不爱了 连回忆 都是负荷

很巧的 身边的好朋友们都成了情侣了
说真的 很羡慕你们啊
大家都很幸福^^

而我呢 对不起呀
很久了 还走不出来

那天竟然让家骆骂了
看得出来，你有认真地骂我
“你自己都清楚那人是人渣了，为什么你还要为他伤心？”
后边好带着动词 *Slap*
呵呵，你第一次这么骂我也~
谢谢你
不骂不醒嘛~

对不起啊，亲爱的你们
小两口轮着来念我说我
我都听不进去
我就是牛嘛~
对不起啊~

我答应你们
我的眼泪
以后只为
值得的人
留
明天开始
好吗？

今天就让我哭完
最后一次

傻瓜
我们分手一年了
对不起对不起对不起
再多的对不起都来不及了
对不起
我不听话
我不听劝
伤了你的心了

就当作是一个人生的经验吧
后悔的同时
我该感恩
如果不是因为这件事
我还以为
这世界上都没坏人了
身边的人都是无私的
不会有人背叛自己的
我都错了

亲爱的你
虽然我常说你
但我也只强你那么一点点
我也是会哭的
下次
我会让你紧紧抱着我
这段日子里受的委屈
都哭出来
好吗？
说不定我还会陪着你一起哭呢^^

但是该放下的就该放下
该走的始终都是该走的
我们是时候
继续自己的人生了
好吗？

乖

我一直都在
即使有时候我忙了下
没办法陪你说电话

我还是在那的
好吗？

英雄

杨门女将

从小就爱

巾帼不让须眉

大爱

没去戏院看

在家下载了

是啦

都配音

评语不好

可我的重心在

杨门女将

试想想

家里的男人差不多死光了

可当时的宋朝

我就不信没男人了

可是

还是要女人家上战场

无形中是种讽刺

但

她们是英雄

很多男人都比不上的英雄

我喜欢五娘在戏里

即使中箭身亡

仍用长枪支撑

带给我一个

宁死不屈服的意境

下一部想看的电影

昂山淑姬

我知道

我很不像女生

可我就是这样

柯藤

有人说，每个女孩心里都有一个柯藤

那么，我希望你是我的柯藤

行么？

笨蛋

那些年

如果

男孩

勇敢一些

一切的一切

都会不同

其实大家都一样

很多时候

只因为

鼓不起勇气

错过

有些时候

我宁可你勇敢些

有些时候

我恨自己不够勇敢

有人问：为什么你不问清楚？

因为

我怕

我怕不能继续喜欢他

眼泪顺着脸颊留下来

应该没人发现

果然是

默默流泪的双子座女孩

电影散场后

一直默默的

“不知怎的，我一直想到他”

心思细腻的你

应该是发现了吧

一直保持沉默的我

似乎又有心事了

我很想他

我有乖

我都没找他了

放心

我会好好的

就像你说的那样

就像你说的

孤身在外的我们

没有人让我们依靠

所以我会好好的

我的青春

我自己掌握

p.s. 胡夏的声音，我喜欢

柯景腾傻笑的样子，真的很像聪

09/11/2011

Sometimes, some hard decision have to be made.

When these hard decisions are made, there are always no turning back.

I wish i can just forgive everything and step forward.

But i can't.

People told me: Maybe there are still some misunderstanding.

I said: If there is really any misunderstanding, when they knew that i had known bout all these, they would have at least explained something. But the fact is, they din even care.

Ya, i cant forgive the reasons that made me cried for more than 12 hours on 21 May 2011.

Never ever.

And, yes, i hate myself to be so naive and just belief everything others told me.

P/s: I will still never forgive him either, so do you. And i believe this is what he wanted. He always wanted me to hate him as much as i can so he can totally let go the guiltiness.

Ya, i am mean. I am always just too kind and too generous just to pretend like i am idiot and just let people stabbed me however they wanted to and keep silent.

Thus, hard decisions made.

And..

This is being forced.

By the so called:

Environment

Reality

Society

01/11/2011

Chest pain happens more and more often

Breathe more and more unstable

Sometimes need to breath so hard for enough oxygen

I always read those signs as i am having very low blood pressure

I really need medical check-up

Mum will definitely jump if she knew these

Please give me more time and i promise i will give myself a healthier body

And...

I miss you...

But...

I will make sure myself to cut off the bad habit...

To call you...

Crying Sky

Raining again

Sky

May i know who are you raining for?

You can always see everything clearly staying above us

No matter happiness and sadness

Even those that you would never liked to know

You will see it

I assume that whenever its raining

Is because you saw something sad

I am a mum ^^

Wanted to be part of it for such a long time.

During one view on World Vision's official website in Oct 2011

I finally registered.

My kid, A Chinh Giang

I assume he is 4 years old (as the profile i received today only stated he is Kindergarten Grade 0)

He is from a single parent family and he has no brothers and sisters.

He is from northwestern Vietnam, a small village named Tua Chua.

Tua Chua is a farming community with a population of 44,912, more than half of them live below the poverty line.

Due to the mountainous terrain and frequent droughts or floods, the villagers cannot produce enough food that over 70% of the households go hungry for two to three months every year.

The educational facilities are sorely lacking and only 26% of the children attend kindergarten. Furthermore, many of the ethnic children do not understand Vietnamese, which is the medium of instruction.

Moreover, there is an acute lack of health facilities, resources and awareness on basic hygiene there.

I am proud to be part of it now.

Any information, kindly refer http://www.worldvision.com.my/index.php

Collection in Oct 2011

All the souveniers i get in Oct!!

Lolz!!

From Chiang Mai, Pulau Perhentian, Taiwan, and Hong Kong.

Thanks to all the colleagues, HP, HM, CM & SCM^o^

Big Spender in Oct 2011

My 1st fragrance in my life^o^

I know, its expensive but i love it^o^

So far, the only brand of fragrance that really attracted me so much.

It is Coach Poppy Flower^o^

Well, they gift me Signature Perfume

And Sample of Legacy Perfume

With extra sample of poppy flower & RM30 Parkson Voucher ^o^

Happened to saw my beloved Pinkie Pirates in Memory Lane

Hesitated for a long while still bought it back><

It costed RM43.90!!

So expensive!!

But i just love it^o^

It helps me sleep *blush*

30/10/2011

I'd rather believe that ghost exists in this world

Than to believe words from guys

I am too kind to always fulfill what others wish

End up hurting myself

Why i just never learnt the lesson to be more selfish?

Why do i have to care so much about others feelings?

Leave me alone

And i will be able to adapt to loneliness soon..

宁肯相信世上有鬼

也不要相信男人说的话

为什么总学不会自私些，残忍些？

总要伤害自己

为什么总是不会吸收教训？

为什么总是顾虑那么多？

就任由我自己一个人吧

慢慢地我会习惯孤独

FED 5B

FED 5B Rangefinder

Next target? > <

I am really being poisoned by cameras badly

T_T

Missing you

I thought i will never miss a person so badly anymore..

Yet, i miss you

Why god always love to play with me in ways i never expected?

That i thought will never ever happen on me..

Hardly breathe missing you

Is this test from you?

What do you think?

What do you think?

挣扎

想拨电话

理智告诉我不要不要

拨通了电话

又如何呢？

难道告诉你我只是想听听你的声音吗？

别傻了

逞强

我很现实

我很自私

伤害自己的事

我不做

又在逞强

18/10/2011

Gosh!!

I miss you

Badly..

16/10/2011

Emo _ll_

Duwan sleep in late night

Lucky tml not working

Hate myself for not being strong enough

Not tough enough

Not independent enough

When only this little girl will grow up?

Just escaped for a lil while

Now feels like wanna excape again

Why i just can't face the realities always?

What i wanna do now?

What i want for my future?

Who am i suppose to be?

Lost my path..

May God lead me whr i shud go and wat i shud do?

And may i tough enough to force myself not to fall into another trap.. anymore..

I need to protect myself.. very very much..

Fragile heart can't overcome another injuries..

12/10/2011

Days in Kota Kinabalu

Happy

Cox of your companionship?

Looking for you guys at the moment stepped out from

Kota Kinabalu International Airport

Well, easy job

Bamboo in red shirt with you standing beside

Long time no see ^^

When we went for dinner tat night

Your face was so dark & fierce

Cox waited for very long time yet got ppl tried to get away our table

1st time saw you black face > <

Before sunset at Tanjung Aru

You guys drink again

KK guys really can drink alot

But was really uncomfortable

Drank only half glass

End up you finish it for me

Cox ppl threatened "We wun leave until all the beer is finished"

But you need to go to church

Sorry> <

Friend cum HP called that day during dinner

(happened to be regarding work> <)

Your face turned dark and scold once you knew it

Your temper also bad xia ho~ ^^

Go for drinking hours again after dinner

You stopped the waiter for continue adding beer into my glass

1st time i drank finished all the beer in the glass

Around 1 bottle perhaps

You guys really help me doing training there^^

"Why you drank so much last night?"

"Why cant?"

"I asked you stop drinking cox you looked so sleepy but you also continue drinking"

"Cox i am thirsty"

"Then i am thirsty also lo"

"Sorry lo, its all my fault lo"

Ya, i mimic you in that

I wun pay for copyright de lo~ xD

The picture i love alot

Thank you^^

You love to play with my UWS & Mini Instax

Feels fresh and interesting ba

You also a curious baby

Yet so brilliant

May i keep the distance with you not to hurt myself?

11/10/2011

那种感觉

又回来了

我好怕

每个说不想恋爱的人

心里都有一个不可能的人

对

我是

我想你

如果我说这次的旅行

出发点是因为你

会如何？

07/10/2011

有些时候
会不小心
让自己
感觉寂寞

这个可怕的东西
会让人不理智的做出
失去理智的决定

所以
人
总是千方百计
不让自己感到寂寞
可这同时
是不是已经
做出了一些
不自觉的
不理智的
决定？

可又有谁
不会感到寂寞
不希望身边有个人陪？

刚刚有人对我说
“祝福你在亚庇有艳遇”
汗

有人说
我变了
不再那么执著了
真的吗？

我怎么觉得自己还是一样的呢？

总觉得自己还是那个长不大
不够成熟懂事圆滑的傻丫头
又总爱逞强不甘示弱
总是辛苦了自己

人
总是爱
自哀自怜

祝我旅途愉快

幸福快乐就好

看着很常在身边的你们

越来越幸福

那淡淡甜甜的幸福味道

我很喜欢

每当看着你们嘴角扬起的微笑

会不自禁的跟着笑

你总会问：

为什么一直看着我笑？

我答：

就觉得你很好笑

呵呵

虽然还是有很多人误会

我等着看好戏

xD

幸福快乐就好

^^

不同的星期六夜晚

很突然的

被约出去了

有点意外

第一次

跟朋友

和朋友的朋友

一起喝“茶”

有点不习惯吧

希望没给人带来不良印象

囧

小小的尝试

大大的突破

还是不明白

为什么酒能当茶喝

> <

有尝试喝多一点了

而且还是heineken

但真的只是一点点

囧

再怎么不想承认都好

再怎么逃避都好

是该学学喝点酒了

一点点不一样的星期六夜晚

29/09/2011

愚昧的人类

总以为自己值得拥有最好的

身边总有形形色色的人

有说书的

有诚实的

有卖鱼的

有大方的

有自恋的

有不修边幅的

有自以为是的

有谦虚的

有龌龊的

有纯洁善良的

不久前

听了一个荒谬的故事

对不起啊

不是我不想相信你

而是我已经知道事实了

不过你真的可以考虑写小说了

说这完全没发生过的事都能眼皮不眨一下

佩服佩服

同时我也会重新评估你的人格

又听说了某人的近况

你真的不配

而且

你还在利用她

不觉得羞耻吗？

还是完全没有廉耻心？

我真是瞎了眼

“你怎么都不刮胡子啊？”

“刮了第二天又长出来，那天天花这些时间，倒不如一个星期刮一次”

先生，你真的有够懒也

果然够潇洒

最近的相处还算愉快^^

我还在享受单身

所以别来问我最近的感情事

那道心墙再也不会那么轻易崩塌

还是得谢谢某人

让我学会保护自己

虽然我恨你

26/09/2011

有时候

人总爱回忆过去

明明那回忆那么伤人

那天终于脱口而出

拜托别在我面前更新他的消息

除非是无可避免

原来我真的开始恨了

这样也好

我原本就没那么伟大

伟大到原谅你做过的一切

就像你现在没办法面对我一样

胆小鬼

我成全你

也保护我自己

偶尔和好友一起聚餐的感觉还是不错的

虽然要当spot light > <

偶尔跟君贤天雄抢下女朋友

也是一种乐趣嘛~ :p

接下来

要存钱

去香港

同时

亚庇

等着我

我果然够爱玩> <

无助

每当这种时候
很希望
有个肩膀
让我依靠
让我依赖
放声哭泣

我果然还不够坚强
不够成熟
不够努力

每当这个时候
特别希望
身边有个
他

18/09/2011

一个星期忙碌的生活

从老师猫

吃死猫

演变成现在的病猫

算是一步步升级吗？

囧

有时候

当你在评论别人时

看看自己

是否有那个资格

你可以不喜欢

你可以提出自己的意见

而不是将自己的想法强加在别人身上

每个人身上都有伤

伤口的愈合率

因人而异

有时候

不执著

不期盼

反而是最好的解脱

其实这道理很多人都懂

可又有多少人办得到？

曾经有人对我说

“无论发生什么事，

放声哭吧，我们在”

听过就好了

曾经我放了很大的期盼

最后我得到更大的伤害

甚于

那个把我伤了又伤的某人

可同时

我明了了

我身边最要好

最没有秘密的

贴身好友

不离不弃

提醒我

陪伴我

看着我

慢慢走出来

每件事的发生有因有果

有好有坏

当然而

由自身定义

我认为我学到的多过我失去的

这样就已经足够了

其实开心可以很简单

p.s.今天4.15pm check-in Kuala Lumpur > <

15/09/2011 (2)

记得小时候
你就长得特别快
大家都说你是巨婴

反之
我一直都像营养不良

两人站在一块
人人都以为我们年级相差不远
殊不知我年长整五岁

慢慢的我们都长大了
我一直停留在161公分
你现在已经181公分了
甚至还在发育期中

你很喜欢用手按着我的头说
“这是我妹妹”
还真的骗到人
明明你就那么的孩子气

很久以前就开始的习惯
喜欢靠在你身上
手牵手逛街
躺在你大腿上
跳上你的背
紧紧抱着你
你都由得我

今天受了委屈
紧紧抱住你
因为我的呼吸
颈项很痒吧
但你静静地让我抱着
问“你在外头也是这样吗？”
今天的你特别温柔

很喜欢赖在你身上

15/09/2011

开始不喜欢
天蝎座

没声没息的你
让我需要重新评估

恨透了
自己

幸好
老朋友相聚
感觉不错
难得母亲不再设门禁

家睿很随和

可是工作堆山> <

14/09/2011

刚好有机会回家乡
因为工作的关系

在家工作
有点不习惯

总觉得这里的时间过得很慢
因为生活太悠闲吗？

我果然有被虐症
习惯了忙碌匆匆的生活吧

有人问
没有打算回来工作吗？
我摇摇头
“暂时都没那打算”

有人问
“有男朋友了吗？”
“我嫁给公司啦^^”

碰巧在这里的公司遇到中学的学弟们
遇到爸爸的老朋友
世界真小

今天想跟老朋友见见面
不准放我飞机！！
呵呵~ xD

该不该给你机会呢？
给我多些信心和时间吧^^

11/09/2011

我真的好想好想给大家一个机会

可是我好怕

伤痕累累的心

我变了

我不再勇往直前

我不再不顾一切

我成了一碰就碎的玻璃球

你说沉在海底的心已经长满青苔

与其打捞上来

不如重新培养一个

刹那

有点感动

我到底该怎么做

07/09/2011

忘了多久没找你了

很突然很奇迹的

你主动找我了

我说我的心已沉入太平洋的海底

被捆绑在一颗大石头上

浮不起来了

你说你会潜水把它打捞起来

第二天我问了同样的问题

你说了完全不同的答案

我不喜欢猜测

果然

不要期待

是保护自己的最佳方法

04/09/2011

After such a long time, finally i drove> <

Well, actually just turning around, simple practice at a parking lot.

But still, i am so excited^^

Autocar is not so difficult~ xD

But i cant control well after 5 years din drive..

I think i needed some time..

Enjoyed my time being piggy rolling around at sweet sweet home~

Spent all my holidays with family~

Ya, i miss my parents, my brothers~

Mummy and younger brother still the one i stick around the most of cox~

Last night slept very late and even waken up my lil bro..

But i asked him to keep his mouth shut right after the call~

I think he was abit shocked that i was so honest to just told him what happen and asked him to keep his mouth shut~ xD

He told me: I wun tell, cox i dunno if it is good or bad yet!

Lil bro you are so adorable~ xD

Someone told me that this is the period he saw me really happy everytime he chat with me.

Ya, cox i hav no need to think of anything else but just enjoy at here, whr i grown up.

But, tml is the time to bck to reality..

Early morning flight..

Shud i get u all some foochow food? > <

Love from Pangkor

Someone MMS me this photo^o^

Damn love it~ xD

Sunset from Pangkor Island~

Thanks~

31/08/2011

Well, i reach home around 9pm something last night 30/08/2011

But i only able to see your appearance at 5.30pm 31/08/2011

Ya, i spent my whole day time with mum, eldest bro and younger bro

But..

Where were you?

Dad?

I love you, dad.

爱自己 是最明智的选择

不记得多久了

没有你的来电显示

没有你的信息

你的msn头像也不再闪烁

既然我是特别的

那为何你从不主动找我？

既然我是特别的

那为何你总忽冷忽热

既然我是特别的

那为何你不珍惜

果然爱自己是最明智的选择

Nonsense 29/08/2011

Dizzy~

My head so heavy~

I need more sleep~

Blood pressure definitely not yet recovered..

No matter how, going back home for small vacation~

Muahahaha~

Charge energy~

I miss mum's homecook~

I miss kampua~

I miss laksa~

I miss red wine chicken soup noodle~

I miss kompia~

I miss all the food thr~

Still cant get rid of the bad habit of thinking back passes..

If you asked what is my biggest lesson this year..

I gained lots of lessons in both friendship & love..

And belief it or not~

Friendship part hurts me more.

And..

I dunno when only i am going to let it go and forgive everything..

Different people, doing the same thing.

Given different view from same people.

Ya, this is where the world always been unfair of.

I know,

I am not pretty,

I am not outgoing,

I am not jiao di di, soft soft type of girls,

I am not having good temper,

I am not mature enough and yet i am not little girl enough to let others just ignore & forgive whatever i did,

I am just not the type that most people wanted me to be.

Ya, you may not like me.

But don't just simply make a story out of nothing on me accusing me doing something that i never did.

And judge me in the story you make of yourself.

And spread the rumors all over the world scare that i would get any more friends.

沒那麼愛他

^0^

Enjoying Single Life~ xD

Fri night went for dept dinner
Frankly speaking everything were fine except that particular part
End up our MD asked me to let him noe who is my real bf
No matter how i enjoy having fun with branches admin^o^

However
I prefer to be single now
I enjoy my single life very much
I am not in a hurry
I duwan to think of those complicated boys and girls relationship at least for now

I am just fine by myself

Thank you for all your concern

Trying to have a different life
And enjoy to the max^^

14/08/2011

Had a great date with dear big bro^^

Fun OK Cafe at Tmn Connaught, Cheras

I love the decorations there

But the food, so so..

But i do love their menu~ Check out the food's name~ xD

One part of their interior design, it makes me feels comfortable~

Feels like wanna ly down and sleep directly~ xD

They even decorate the staircase!! Cute, right? xDD

I love the way you look at me and listen to me^^

You always so 温柔

Always pamper me and giving me support

Thanks so so much^^

Yesterday had 38 chat with Matt,

end up he keep kacau me tdy,

claiming he was too boring cox no crowd at all at roadshow made him felt boring =.=''

Had dinner at Tong Jieng, Danau Kota together

Nice to meet you, Joanne & Tommy^^

Really 38 gang> <

Had a severe gastric

Pain till i thought i am going to get fainted

Felt my brain can't get enough oxygen as i can't even breath well due to the pain

At that moment,

I wish that i am lying on your chest and you hug me tight

What is that means?

Hopefully i won't be having such a torturing gastric anymore

Really suffering T_T

勇气，去哪了？

把心上了锁

等待对的人拿着对的钥匙来解锁

Am i over self-protective?

曾经有人说

“欣赏你的勇气，总是勇往直前，争取自己想要的”

亲爱的

太勇敢，反而会受更大的伤害

现在的我犹如惊弓之鸟

一点点挫折

我就放弃

有人试图解锁

我就逃避

有让我想脱下盔甲的对象

我又逃亡

伤痕累累的心

受不住再次的伤害

一个人的自由

最安全

人终是会寂寞的

习惯就好了

我放弃你了

不会主动找你了

无论我多么的想念你

想争取

去别的城市的机会

用冠冕堂皇的理由

开始新的生活

可我的勇气，去了哪？

12/08/2011

Hate this kind of feelings
Hate myself to do things wrong in works
Especially those troubles others
"If i'd been more careful, then won't cause all these"

"If this world, got so many "if", life shud be very smooth, don't have so many ups and downs"

Thanks, honey.

Sometimes wonder, do i really suitable to my current job?
Should i make a change?

Recently i have been making some changes,
I dunno whether it is good or bad

Stop calling you
Its hard
So, i am trying hard
Even that i miss you so much

Hanging out with people i'd never go out with
Even them feel shocked
Yes, i am trying to change

How tomorrow will be?
Hopefully the sky still bright
My smiles dun go away

Thinking to get a tattoo on my waist
But still have no enough courage..

07/08/2011

Fully Utilised Weekend!! XDDD

Saturday morning 7am i was on austin(eunice's bf)'s car,

heading to sunway.

Sunway Lagoon All Park Free Ticket^^

We are the earliest~ Most punctual XDD

Big gang went for breakfast before we went in~ XD

Thr were 17 of us> <

I suppose it is quite a big gang la..

Struggling for long time,

at last the "intention" of playing water defeats me> <

End up i decided to use tampons> <

Last mins went guardian for it *shy*

Well.. If can, i still prefer not using it

It grows bigger after it absorbed water

3 times bigger is more than enough

Really uncomfortable> <

玩水就是要无忧无虑的嘛> <

We went for almost all water sports

All more exciting games in amusement park

Went archery and flying fox

End up we were floating in wave pool, watching the performance

"Help Captain Quack get it Quack back"??

Sth like that> <

1st try for tattoo sticker on shoulder

I wanna try for those temporarily tattoo next time *Shy*

Got sunburn on shoulders> <

Still pain> <

The 后果 did not apply sunblock

Went esquire kitchen for dinner!!

Well, 1st time also^^

My opinion ma.. So so> <

Loudspeaker for k-ing session after that..

I was freaking tired d..

后果slept 2am sth the night before> <

Slept alot in thr..

Lolz..

Tdy i woke up late> <

Sorry siokyee> <

Went viva mall^^

1st time^^

Met keanboon at masjid jamek lrt^^

Well, i am not the latest~ Wakakaka~

Went kazu sushi for lunch~

Not bad, but i still prefer sushi zanmai> <

Went MBO cinema for "Rise of the planet of ape"

2nd time for this movie but 1st time for MBO cinema..

5 stars for the movie but not the cinema..

I still prefer GSC > <

2nd round at De Mamak Corner^^

Cox i was asking cheeheng to fetch me back cox i am really tired to take lrt alone> <

End up we decided to go for 2nd round at De Mamak Corner^^

Just behind whr i stay^^

Thanks guys~

Discussed bout next year trip^^

Definitely i will be joining, duwan to miss trips with you all anymore^^

I love the moments spending time with you all^o^

p.s. Happy Birthday to bdae boy Mr H. ^^

05/08/2011

Saw a nice pm of someone^^

都怪时间太瘦，指缝太宽，让它跑了。。

*Like*

So, we have to appreciate it and always fully utilise our time.. ^^

Sunway lagoon tml^^

After sunway lagoon, japanese buffet (have no idea whr and what is the name> <), then sing k..

The day after tml, will be the gathering i have been waiting for> <

I miss you all.. So so much> <

Just made a call,

You in busy,

Sorry.

May i?

Miss you?

Mr Lonely come to me again

03/08/2011

Wednesday night but i hangout till so late

Wings cafe setapak~ Well, not too bad..

But lots of mosquitoes> <

Listen to ppl's singing, chit chat-ing

Looking at Mr H talking most of the time

Ya, i know you proud of it la

Know yourself lucky jiu hao

Thanks for the 陪伴

After listen song, now you going sing k

Syoknya~

Friend intro a song to me

潘嘉丽-硬地女孩

She said she think of me when she heard this song

And, yes

I like it

Thank you birthday girl^^

勇敢到底算什麽 胆小如鼠又如何
总好过让人摆布没性格
自由终究是我的 坚持也不是规则
拿我没辙走为上上策

Cos I’m an Inde Inde Independent Girl
And I don’t need don’t need don’t need you to rock my world
woo～An Inde Inde Inde Independent Girl
I don’t need you to rock my world

WOO～深呼吸用尽全力去爱我所爱
WOO～渐渐的推翻了阻碍
WOO～哪怕耍一些些小聪明别见怪
WOO～笑容掩饰丑态成气派

You wanna rock my world 但我不是你的Girl
潇洒犀利又怎麽 你不必管我怎麽做
Show me show me what’s your love
缩头逃避没原则 超没礼貌又爱计较
I don’t care if you give a damn

02/08/2011

Even though you said you no need morning call
Even though you said you should be fine
Still made the call

And..
Yes, you still sleeping at 8.15am..
9am work..
Gosh..

1st time heard you sounds so sleepy^^
Gotcha~!
Got cute dao lor~
懒洋洋想继续赖床的声音
很可爱^^

“我不要可爱”

Sorry lor, you really cute ma~ XDD

Add Oil
Take care

You're Not Sorry

You are not sorry at all

You never feel sorry either

Don't pretend like you are innocent

Will never belief in you anymore

不要装无辜

不要扮清高

绝对不会再相信你

倔强

你不珍惜的努力

造就了我的倔强

造就了我的逞强

心 更坚强

钢甲保护我

不再受伤

31/07/2011

Ya, late night..

Got nothing to do but duwan to sleep..

I am tired..

My mind telling me to sleep..

My eyes asking me to rest..

But i am still here..

Did nothing the whole day..

Just kept on watching CSI:NY

Ya, i am addicted..

Wondering.. I can have my lunch and dinner watching varies kind of dead bodies in thr..

Like, bodies crashed by containers? Like spatula..

Bodies chewed by tigers?

Bodies after autopsy, showing things normal people will not like to c when having food..

But..

I dun like horror movie..

I cant watch horror movie..

Cox i get nightmare with those..

Hmm.. Strange me..

Tried to figure sth out..

Conclusion still the same..

I just wanna be myself..

No matter is misunderstand or whatever..

I dun care anymore..

Make myself clean and steady..

Then i will be happy~

XD

After all, i want to be more independent than anyone else.

Well, bad personality, i just dun like the feelings ppl feels i am dependent on others.

Either how, always nobody there when i needed someone.

Just need to get used to it more.

To chase away the feeling of "helpless" & "loneliness"

Well, like someone told me before

I am superwoman.

And yes, that is my target.

29/07/2011

Papercut on my finger hurts
Why i get papercut wounds on my fingers always?
Typing hurts me even with plaster
Have to use different writing gesture
Wanted to go for movie
Any movie as long as not horror movie

You are very tension today
Thanks for sharing with me
As i do not involve in at all

Big boy, you have very great smile
p.s. with your luan qi ba zao de teeth
Please do not let your tension take away your smile
XD

Add Oil
I heart you ^^
Heart warming boy ^o^

28/07/2011

"Wei, wake up"
"Hmm.. Oo.."

2 months month end closing i have been like this
Wonder why you always sounds so energetic so early in the morning..
Yet you told me you back to sleep after that =.=''
Means you also just wake up lor..
How come sounds like very awaken de?
Or just i am too pig?
And yes, i like your morning call.
Ans yes, our photo still in my purse.

Met the family this morning.
Mum with a kindergarden kid and a baby in hand,
with grandpa and grandma.
Always so harmoni
Today the baby kept looking at me and hand over his hand
I cant stand of it start playing with him
Ya, grandpa, grandma and mum were staring at us
He is just too cute ^o^
I LOVE babies ^o^
You brighten up my day~

Can't remember why you looked for me today
If not mistaken is cox of work
Ya, we are all very busy at this moments
Hey, cheer up
At least i gave you big support in there too
You owe me meals~ XDD

Sunway Lagoon all park free ticket
Still thinking when to go
Should i go next saturday?

RM60++ for bungee jump
Should i go for it?

Yes, i like extreme games.

24/07/2011

You never understand me but trying to control my life

You never try to know what we wanted but just want us to follow exactly what you wanted us to do

If you can do that on us

Why you cannot do that on someone that needed it more?

You always say we are very naughty kids

Take a look around at the girls at my age

Am i really naughty and bad girl?

Do i clubbed? Do i drink? Do i gamble? Do i always hangout in midnight never wanted to go home?

Take a look at elder brothers.

Take a look at me.

You are already proud enough of us.

You are such a big smoker and none of us smoke.

You know what cousins said?

They said they can hardly imagine how come child from our family can be such a good kid.

Dad, we are all degree students.

Do you want to break your records cox of younger brother?

I took my UEC paper when i was 17.

I did not do well when i was 16, senior two.

You purposely come talk to me warn me to get a better result.

Now, he is 18.

Yet, his results really kanasai, i closed my eyes during exam also will not get such sucks results.

Look at how you treat younger brother.

Did you ever try to look at him closely?

Tried to talk to him?

Never.

In one whole year, the sentences i talked to you is less than 50 sentences.

I seldom back home.

When i am at home, mum will try to stay with us more.

But do you?

Even we at home, you at home either.

Maybe i wun be able to see you at all in one whole day.

Now, you trying to asked me go back.

Arrange my life for me.

May you please take a look on younger brother first?

Who is the one need you more now?

I am doing just fine.

But obviously he is not.

Give me one good reason why you wanted me to go back and stay home everyday?

Go back and face walls?

Tell me, what for?

Don't tell me you miss me.

You never really give me a call.

You won't even stay home longer time cox i go back home a while after such a long time.

Even if we spoken out, wanted you to stay home longer time.

Ya, i know you love us.

But using the wrong way.

Brighter future

Some people always live in the past

I am looking forward for brighter future

You never felt sorry.

Hopeless.

I am lucky.

20/07/2011

A "Goodnight" before sleep always warm up my heart

I know you are just polite

But thanks anyway

Cox you have no need to

There is a wall in my heart

Who built it?

When it is being built?

Starting to quarantine myself from most of the people

Well, still trying to play around with everyone and have fun

But..

I wanna go home

I wanna go travel

I wanna get away from here

Stay in realistic

Nope

I cant do so anytime as i like

Planning for kk trip in Oct

Anyone interested?

17/07/2011

I know you are diff with others

I know you are imbalance with what happened

But i never were you, i dunno how you feel

Same, you never were me, you never know how i feel

You cant understand the issues i concern of and always think everything are so easy

Ya, maybe for you

Sorry, i do not have such confidence in myself that i am able to overcome everything so easily cox i am not you

You have the potential but not me

多的是我不知道的事

same

多的是你不知道的事

Maybe we were right to break up

Every conversation ends with big quarrel

My throat still soring

Cox yelling and screaming last night

Why you were not there when i needed someone to cheer me up?

You really do seldom reply sms...

Going to penang for training today

Time to be fully utilised

Will be freaking busy

And duwan to involve in anything that upset me

15/07/2011

Looking at photos

Seeing most of the colleagues drunk

Saw most of them get so high

Wondering why i did not try to have a drink of those

Just because someone told me girls better don drink?

Am i such a good baby?

I din even get back to the dance floor

I was scared by some of the colleagues, drunk of course

I stayed aside and look at the crowd

"So, this is how clubbing like"

"Ya"

Both of us stayed aside and look at the crowd

Korean boss drunk and take off shirts and dance

Girls wearing really sexy dancing so high

Wow~

Waited until almost done

Went back to dance floor trying to find others

My honey is just tall enough for me to look for her in the crowd

They asked me where i have been

Yes, i was with someone

Colleagues telling me: Wish to hear good news from you soon

想很大声地说

我不想你了

终于做回我自己了

Long weekend

Long weekend to be ended.. In another few hours..

Fri get back home earliest in these few mths..

As there is rumors saying that due to bersih rally on 9th July,

Lrt may not stop at klcc station started from 7 sth,

Better to belief than nothing,

Went back home early..

Sat stayed home whole day, i am the only stay at my house,

seems like all my hsemates back hometown,

well, seriously don't really have much communication with them,

of cox i dunno whr they went.

Mum and bro take turn to call me,

to ensure that i had been a good girl staying at home not going anywhr.

Sun, still i am the only one at home,

Grab the chance to do hsekeeping,

feels great after that^^

Full-time "housewife" on that day^o^

Went jusco for food restock too of cox~

Night time went ts for hat hunting for mafia night,

after that went Feelings Cafe for dinner~

Thanks dear^^

And take k of yourself at JB

Today~

Purposely took leave for someone,

also an excuse to get away from office.

Today's plan, totally unscheduled.

Last night someone woke me up and told me,

"I will let you know when i reach kl, i am taking 6.50am flight, and now i am really too tired to plan"

Mr, 12.30am you baru reach home after whole day event of cox you r tired la..

A sms in morning 9.30am~ So on time!!

"I am lost at airport"

I jumped up and called find out he is just fine~ =.=''

Such a naughty boy.. Isk..

Met them up at midvalley sushi king~

Mr Kenny Chu and Mr Brian Ho~ Haha~

Like meeting net friends~ *Blush*

Seriously they are really funny, laugh out loud for one whole day~

I miss my own 傻笑 like that..

Thanks to you guys for getting it back^^

Kenny is really so so nice and brian is really amusing^o^

Really had lots of fun today.

And seriously, they can eat and drink alot!!

1st station sushi king for lunch;

2nd stop, Gardens for drinks and 插座 for kenny's galaxy tab,

And of cox photos taking time;

3rd stop, Italianese for teatime? > <

We had pizza and salad and drinks again;

Last stop, Starbucks for drinks and galaxy tab's charging,

His tab really run out of battery very fast> <

Brian gave me half bottle of orange juice as i really cannot drink so much anymore but just wanna have a try,

Well.. Its really orange juice..

So sour!!!

Sour till kenny look at my face expression and laughed > <

End up gave it all back to brian cox he is ok with it> <

Pls imagine we had so many food from 12.30pm till 6pm..

Gain weight for sure T.T

Get myself change my own room's light bulb and starter for very 1st time,

As i always said, girls can be just fine by their own^^

Someone kept nagging me asking someone to help..

I know u worry bout it, but..

It is really simple why do i need to purposely get someone to do it for me?

I can fix it all by myself^o^

I am no longer the little girl that was so dependent on you.

I have to be as independent as i can.

我必须很独立

10/07/2011

Found out hard to cheer myself up anymore

Laugh as much as i can

Did anything that would make myself happy

But seems failed

Why am i always depressed?

Even when i laugh out loud

Deep inside there

Nope, i am not happy

Getting myself rest whole day yesterday

Slept as much as i could

Watching dramas & movies that i never touch for months

"Jin""Boss 2""House"

"The Last Song"

Later "CSI" & "House" to be continued~

Have to go dl those unfinished japanese drama and.. "Vampire diaries"

Yes, i love vampire stories^^

Of course, those stories with handsome and pretty vampires, not those in "Priest" > <

Getting another day of holiday for me tomorrow

Hopefully it will be a great day

As he said: This trip to KL i cannot plan anything cox everything too last minutes and unexpected

Future always unexpected

And yes, i need to find something to do

Make myself busy and concentrate in

And be happy^^

Saw some useful art books & photography books at kinokuniya the other day but the price really *bling bling*

The price hurting my eyes -.-

Why everything have to cost so much now > <

For your all information

I never remove any coway staff from my facebook friendlist

02/07/2011

My 1st Guy Laroche^o^

Super Like It~ Simple and Nice~ My style~ ^o^

Yes, if you can tear it, dun buy~

I can't tear it, so i bought it~ > <

I am officially pk this mth~

And tml to be continue... T.T

等待

最糟糕的感觉，莫过于不知道该等待还是放弃。

逃离

8月30号

能快点到吗？

好想逃开

一切一切

或许我该

好好计划将来

想居留的城市

想一个人去旅行

我喜歡(不,我愛)

时间在改变 你不要改变

因为我很爱你 不想要你放弃爱情

尤其这段得来不易

我爱你 真的是很爱你

所以想 就这样继续爱下去

慢慢等

慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等上线的铃声

慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等到我都睡觉了

耐心等只为了心动那一刻

慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 慢慢等 等红灯变绿灯

慢慢等 等你突然觉得冷 我会握着温暖 在在这里等着

好听好听好听好听 ^o^

我不想念

我不想念 不想念 他模样

我不想念 他肩膀 轻拥着我肩膀

我不想念 他轻吻我脸庞

把永远说成一颗糖

我不想念 不想念那时光

那些快乐和悲伤 却终在我身旁

我只愿长夜将尽 天快亮

让想念的歌不再唱

在槟城的短短旅行时

在酒店里的电视里

前后播了两次的MV

歌词深深触动我俩的心

I miss you

我好想你

19/06/2011

以为散心回来

心情会改变

旅途中是快乐的

但是回到现实

一切又打回原形

可以不要不要再问我感情事吗？

不要再问我爱谁

不要再问我思念谁

这有这么重要吗？

我只想一个人

真的真的一个人

真的不想牵扯任何感情事

可以吗？

是逃避也好

过去了的就让它过去吧

我好累

十个男人九个坏一个想作怪

这世上是不可能存在Mr. 11的

所以我要更坚强更独立

凡事靠自己

男人是不能依靠的

一个人

你在独自完成
自己的世界

慢慢的画圈圈
很快你的世界就会被自己完成

没有我的世界

我会渐渐淡忘你

然后让你滚出我的世界
不留痕迹

就像我似乎从没存在在你的世界一样

我果然比较适合一个人

原点

兜兜转转
一个圈
两个圈
又回到原点

原来我从没离开过

午后的风
徐徐吹着
带着我的思绪
回到过去

随着风迎面而来的水汽
清空我的怒哀愁
由得我细细品味回忆里的甜蜜
感受独留的喜

我的生活自己主宰
我是我自己

一个人

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

《叶子》阿桑

手放开

把手放开

拥抱自己

没人珍惜的执着

由他去吧

女孩都该学会

爱自己

再见

那一刻惊觉

原来我已让自己从你的世界抽身离开

谁爱得太自由

谁过头太远了

谁要走我的心

谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走

谁忘了看着我

谁让爱变沉重

谁忘了要给你温柔

曾经暧昧的朋友知己

再见