Sunday, September 28, 2014

青涩岁月

昨天
你的突来到访
让我有些讶异

你比较健谈了
有些许自负
比较有肉了
以前干巴巴的

基本上这两天是我们第一次说这么多话吧
记得以前常见到你来班上找朋友
知道你可是基本上没什么说过话
大家都说你很害羞
就这么不知不觉10年过去了

今天你的突然告白
说不高兴是假的
这是我的荣幸

原来中学的时候你一直喜欢我啊
那时班上的美女多
我就是一颗小草
可还真没想过
原来我才是你整天在我们班外晃来晃去的原因

谢谢你这么喜欢我
谢谢你让我知道
其实我也很不错

Sunday, September 21, 2014

渐进曲

人生就像是一首渐进曲,
每个出现在生命里的人都是一个音符,每一段情谊就是一节旋律,
纵使有些片段曲不成调,仍是如此独特且无与伦比。

---藤井树《渐进曲》

Sunday, July 6, 2014

放下

其实
很多事
看开了
想通了

就不纠结了
就不难过了

其实
很多事
解决方式很简单

就是
放下

Sunday, June 8, 2014

10 signs when a girl gives up on you

1. She will not try to catch your attention.
2. She will not fight for you anymore.
3. She won’t reply your message as quickly anymore.
4. She won’t try to keep the conversation going anymore.
5. She will not care anymore.
6. She’s no longer jealous.
7. She will flirt and talk to other guys.
8. She’s no longer care if you care or not anymore.
9. She’s no longer goes to your profile and whine to people about how happy you’re, talking to other girls.
10. She will give up on trying to make you love her, because she finally realize that she deserves better.
And you will miss her.
Miss the way she cared about you.
Miss the way she loved you. And you have lost her.
So don’t take any girls for granted,
if you love her, let her know before she gives up !!
And i match all 10 signs. 

Wednesday, May 28, 2014


The only thing u can do best
Is to disappoint me again & again

Till i don't put any hope in you anymore
And you can still disappoint me

You are just so impressive

Friday, May 23, 2014

這個人已經與我無關



其實這個人 已與我無關
手機裡的他 笑得多燦爛
不過是一直很忙 無用的資料忘了刪

其實這個人 已與我無關
他前面的路 是光明暗淡
我決定袖手旁觀 至少不能比他更慢

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Have made myself look at something
To challenge how i'd feel when i see it
The conclusion is
I'm still in pain

"I feel useless, especially when i am with you"
"You are moving forward, and i'm still at the same place"
"The distance between us are getting more and more far"

Friends advise me to sit down and talk to you face to face
But the problem is
When are you able to squeeze the time to talk to me face to face?

When i told my friends that i may only be able to meet you on 31st May
They show me this shocking face
Asking me, how about 21st May?
I just kept quite

Maybe, maybe i am also hesitating
If i should continue to hold on

I'm so freaking tired
And i feel sick
Just to think about it

Can i just take a break?

Thursday, May 8, 2014

You say you miss me
You say you are looking at my photos everyday
You say you are still stalking my facebook & instagram

I cut my hair cox you liked my long hair
You said i look good for you no matter how

I had insomnia and can't sleep well for a while already
I am a human form panda
So i suppose i look good to you too?

Stop telling me things that i don't need to know

I'll be fine
And i don't need you.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Had a big quarrel
You throw ur phone, ur spec, car keys anything on you
Yelling
Shouting
Get me to let you out of my house immediately

So this is what happen when i tried to sort the issues out
I just want to know what is your plan
And there is still no plan
Even if there is, i will never know

I'm so freaking tired

You said: Your friend are correct.
You said: But i dun wish that to happen.

I asked: Shud i still hold onto you?
Shud i?
Can i?

You asked: What does that mean?

"I'm giving you another chance, grab it tight"

I cried after u left, the tear drops was big and heavy, dropping on my legs
Then i realized, i love you afterall

One last chance
I dunno how long time i can hold on...

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Sweet as you

"I ate the apple d"
"Sweet"
"Sweet as me?"
"Yeah, sweet as you xD"

我知道你只是知道我最近的心情不好所以哄我
还是谢谢你
没有女孩不喜欢被人哄的

懒惰

你说其实你很爱我。
你说你都知道我在生气什么。
你说其实你都知道该怎么做。
你说你只是懒惰,只是懒惰讨好我。

我对自己说:好吧,你是爱我的。
可是,我也懒惰了。
我懒惰去想。
你会不会改过?
你会不会把握?

“那为什么你都不在乎我?”
“可能。。我只是懒惰。。”

会不会有一天
你也会懒惰爱我?

Sunday, April 20, 2014

或许我是困惑了

你说你很爱我
可是当我需要安慰的时候
即使我开口说我想要一个拥抱
我也得不到

不知道什么时候开始
我都是主动抱人的那一个
却忽略了我自己
其实是最需要拥抱的那一个

那天
有人问我
"Is there anything you need that i can help?"
我才发现,其实我只是想要一个拥抱
一个安慰的拥抱

什么时候开始
开始不和你商量很多事
因为商量了也没有结果
你永远把自己放在中心点
忽略了我想要的

我不需要你每天陪着我
我只是希望我有困扰的时候,有人商量
我只是希望当我需要安慰的时候,有个拥抱
很难吗?

你说你很爱我
可是你连一个拥抱都吝啬
你到底真的爱我吗?

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Thursday, April 17, 2014

I hope you are really getting better
But why tears still drops, out of control

You have cut your hair
Wanted to start fresh
So, stop crying

Your parents are worry
Your friends are worry

So, be a good girl
Don't make anyone worry anymore

But...
Just let me cry for the last time...

Monday, April 14, 2014

Team Building @ Pangkor FY15 - Part 2

On the second day morning
We woke up at 7am, as we will have in hall activities at 8.30am.
Then its of course some kind of sharing session bla bla bla
Keep on talking
But i kind of like all these session that is prepared by Syahrul
Everything has a meaning behind
And he does not force you to talk/share
I love the rules that he set for the sharing session
He is really doing a great job

In the afternoon, we head for the Island Tour
To a private beach where we were the only visitors
Me and Siu May on the speedboat
Ya, the hair is super messy :p

Our boat, 10 of us (Jia Xiong the photographer is not in the photo of course)

Again, we played some games by the beach
Then after free & easy session starts
Everyone gone crazy!

They started to throw people into the sea
They started with Jerry
Then after Jerry get wet, he becomes the leader to catch people and throw into the sea > <
I was one of them helping them to get Jerry into the sea
Help them to take the HP etc that they found on Jerry before they throw him into the sea

But here is the scene i laughed out hard
Jeff was lying on the beach, relaxing
Then Avex just go over and sit on his chest
Then the rest grab his hands and legs
Of course he struggled
And then he hang himself on Avex
Which gave them no choice but to throw both of them together into the sea


Basically i can only remember Avex running towards me that time
Take away my bag and ask me to hand out my handphone, take off my watch and sunglasses
And also asking me, dun struggle or u will get hurt
Of course i gave up struggle, there were so many of them!
Mana mungkin i can get away?

But then when they were busy dealing with me
Jeff grab the chance to the unattended Charlie beside me, carry her straight away
And throw into the sea
Wow, Jeff you are so man!!!

To be honest
I can't remember who throw me into the sea as everything happens too fast and i was distracted by Jeff who was being so MANLY, until i saw the photos
I can only remember Avex is one of them, because after he threw me
"Eik, haven wet finish, needs to get whole people basah"
Then he just pour water on me again, to make sure i am all wet


After they threw me, they head for mummy
Know what mummy did?
She just ran into the sea herself, saying "I go myself, i go myself" 

And everyone just get crazy after that, and grab anyone insight, who hasn't get wet
Straight into the sea
Including the managers and director

Then the Grand Prix dinner
This 酒鬼 really never ended drinking beer for the whole day
From day time till night time


Elise got the best dress for female that night
Phewitt, so sexy~~ 

I liked Avex's jacket very much therefore i requested to take photo with him
Actually he stick all those stickers
And this is the outcome
"Oh, Handsome!!"

And then he asked Elise to come on stage to do this
So i just act like
"OMFG, what are u both doing?"

My boss get so excited seeing us taking photo with Avex and joined us as well
p/s: Everyone knows she likes him very much, as she mentioned that she even dreamt of him!

After that we gathered in my room for the last night in Pangkor
Poor Iko, Shea May, Angeline, Isaac and Avex were stuck with the manager when they were trying to take more beers for us
Somemore it rained!
They have to take few Tequila shots to get back to us > <
Felt so bad about that

By the time Shea May and Isaac were in my room
They were kind of tipsy already
We played true or dare
And Isaac only mentioned two sentence
"Kiss Jeff"
"Did you fuck before?"

We were just keep on drinking and playing
I kissed both "May"
And get carried by 4 guys, each 5-10 seconds
What happens in the room stays in the room, as they say

Really need to thanks to Avex who has been taking care of me throughout the night
He asked me how much did i drank whenever i opened a new can of beer
He asked how i felt, if i am dizzy or tipsy always
And he ensured Elise that he will drank for me if i started to get drunk
He ensured that my beer is always cold enough so that it wun taste bad
And he took away the beer from me and drink it himself when he feels that i shouldn't drink more

After Iko and Shea May went back to their room
We had some sharing session again
And slowly Avex himself also fallen asleep
So i just get the rest of the people to leave first as it was already almost 5am
Avex wun wake up even Jess kicked him
So i was planning to just let him slept there
But he still woke up when i was trying to put the towel as the pillow under his head
And he insisted that he can walk back by himself

E-yon get up that time and we both watched him walked back
And ran to him when he stopped and bend down
He vomited
So we watched him back to his room
With the message "Whatsapp me when you reach your room"
To be honest, i forgot bout that after i get back to my room
And then he called, just to ensure that we were safe

I just get to know that he was too tired till he forgot to bath but just slept with the sparkling juice smell all over him on the second morning

We were waiting for the ferry and teasing Isaac for being hangover :p 

We stopped by a souvenir shop when we were on the way back to KL
Everyone went down for shopping but i have no interest
And found out that Jiaxiong was playing guitar at the back, and Avex were still there too
So i joined them
And then i fallen asleep on the half way back to KL
And eventually i slept on Avex's shoulder without realizing it even after i woke up
Until he teased me "My arms were pain cox carried you last night, and now my shoulder is pain cox your head is heavy"
*blush*

"No wonder i feel so comfortable when i sleep la, that's why i slept so well"
"Ya, i didn't wake u up cox i saw u slept so well"

Big bunch of thanks for being such a gentleman!!
Hope didn't bring any trouble to you!!

And today i'm still having body ache...
p/s: New record is 4 cans of Calsberg

Team Building @ Pangkor FY15 - Part 1

After the very short preparation time which makes me stressed up and had stomach cramp
Finally here it is
Team Building @ Pangkor

Of course we are twins again, always stick together as if everyone expected
Sitting next to each other on the bus
And we share the same room again

Yeap, we are SRN May Babies Admin

Actually i did not really took alot of photos
Kind of out of the mood until the night time
After the 4 hours on the bus, a very quick lunch at KFC Lumut
45 minutes on the Ferry
Take a short break at the resort
Then we off for the games
Unfortunately i was in the same team with my own boss, Melissa and Director, Andrew
Make me even out of the mood...
Luckily Fee Chin mummy, Avex and Jeff were there too > <

Here are some photos that i took based on requests
Half naked guys in the pool

I purposely retake this one cox cannot see Avex from the front
People request to have his front look wa~~

p/s: We saw half naked Isaac, Avex, Jeff. and even Jiaxiong!! LOL

She is always very yeng.

Hornbill in the restaurant~~

We had some simple BBQ dinner at the night
To be honest, the food are really so so...
But there is something funny happened :p
We were forced to be separated when we girls all sit together
So Fee Chin mummy, Charlie, Irene, left and go to another table
BUT
Ong, Sam Ong, Ken Ong, Saiful sit down on our table
And we found out the boys cheated as they just bulat bulat switched to another table and yet they still have empty seats!
We were so helpless looking around, then they say: We need girls at this table.
Me, Elise and May act super fast, grab our things, and move together to this table.
Poor Eyon, she respond late and we thought there were four seats for us, but there was only 3!
Know what we did? We just grab another chair and ask her to come over. And here comes the crowded table.
p/s: Seriously i dun think any of us will have appetite sitting with those "guys"...


After the dinner, we had a campfire session by the beach.
Can see Isaac playing guitar there


The rest of us were just chatting, drink some beer
I was kind of emo huh?
But this photo is really nice, credit to Jia Xiong.

Then we just sit by the beach chit-chating till Avex suggested to play games called "Angel & Demon"
We were a big gang of around 12-14 people?
And we were having fun till the bosses wanted us to join them
We were kind of bad, of course we duwan to play with bosses
Know what we did?
We told them we wanted to rest then we went to Avex's room to continue the games
Till 2am in the morning.
Well, Avex is really a super gentleman, i was staying at farthest Chalet, and he really did escort me back.

I din really drink much, just 2 cans in that day.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

You

You
Always respond late when i'm definitely not ok

You
Never realized that i have changed

You
Never realized that i was wearing a new necklace that you never know

You
Never asked bout how am i though i have posted on FB that i'm having gastric

You
Can just leave me alone, no calls, no msg, as if you are never there

You
Disappointed me over and over again

Saturday, March 22, 2014

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Hey you
Can stop crying so much for something impossible ma?
Just accept the FACT!!

Friday, March 21, 2014

Can't Stop



Just once in a day, I remember you, miss you
Just once in a day, I try to forget
This can’t be right, this can’t be right
If this isn’t right, then what am I supposed to do?
With your one word, I laugh
I live day by day, like a mirror
My day is yours
Can’t stop me now Can’t stop me now
I still smell your scent of spring
Can’t stop me now Can’t stop me now
I can’t stop, I can’t stop loving you
Ya, i just can't stop loving you now.
I love you so much. 

Friday, February 28, 2014

Don't let me go


I'm breaking free from these memories
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I've said goodbye
Set it all on fire
Gotta let it go, just let it go
I let it go and now i know
A brand new list is down this road
And when it's right, you always know
So this time I won't let go
There's only one thing left here to say
Love's never too late

Won't let you go, don't let me go

Monday, February 24, 2014

Freezing Boy

Please click into the video for the details
I love it


Saturday, February 15, 2014

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May i know what you were thinking seeing this photo?

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Screwed Up

What can i say? I am screwed up!

Sunday, February 2, 2014

World within world


Can't make a new world;
So build a world within a world.

Friday, January 31, 2014

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No matter how wisdom we thought we have
It may be crushed anytime by something called, Feelings
And that is terrifying

Especially that actually makes you hesitate
On what kind of person you are
What do you really want

I am confused

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

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Don't give any promises or high confidence to someone you love
When you are not the decision maker

Disappointment caused
Is huge...