31/07/2011

Ya, late night..

Got nothing to do but duwan to sleep..

I am tired..

My mind telling me to sleep..

My eyes asking me to rest..

But i am still here..

Did nothing the whole day..

Just kept on watching CSI:NY

Ya, i am addicted..

Wondering.. I can have my lunch and dinner watching varies kind of dead bodies in thr..

Like, bodies crashed by containers? Like spatula..

Bodies chewed by tigers?

Bodies after autopsy, showing things normal people will not like to c when having food..

But..

I dun like horror movie..

I cant watch horror movie..

Cox i get nightmare with those..

Hmm.. Strange me..

Tried to figure sth out..

Conclusion still the same..

I just wanna be myself..

No matter is misunderstand or whatever..

I dun care anymore..

Make myself clean and steady..

Then i will be happy~

XD

After all, i want to be more independent than anyone else.

Well, bad personality, i just dun like the feelings ppl feels i am dependent on others.

Either how, always nobody there when i needed someone.

Just need to get used to it more.

To chase away the feeling of "helpless" & "loneliness"

Well, like someone told me before

I am superwoman.

And yes, that is my target.

29/07/2011

Papercut on my finger hurts
Why i get papercut wounds on my fingers always?
Typing hurts me even with plaster
Have to use different writing gesture
Wanted to go for movie
Any movie as long as not horror movie

You are very tension today
Thanks for sharing with me
As i do not involve in at all

Big boy, you have very great smile
p.s. with your luan qi ba zao de teeth
Please do not let your tension take away your smile
XD

Add Oil
I heart you ^^
Heart warming boy ^o^

28/07/2011

"Wei, wake up"
"Hmm.. Oo.."

2 months month end closing i have been like this
Wonder why you always sounds so energetic so early in the morning..
Yet you told me you back to sleep after that =.=''
Means you also just wake up lor..
How come sounds like very awaken de?
Or just i am too pig?
And yes, i like your morning call.
Ans yes, our photo still in my purse.

Met the family this morning.
Mum with a kindergarden kid and a baby in hand,
with grandpa and grandma.
Always so harmoni
Today the baby kept looking at me and hand over his hand
I cant stand of it start playing with him
Ya, grandpa, grandma and mum were staring at us
He is just too cute ^o^
I LOVE babies ^o^
You brighten up my day~

Can't remember why you looked for me today
If not mistaken is cox of work
Ya, we are all very busy at this moments
Hey, cheer up
At least i gave you big support in there too
You owe me meals~ XDD

Sunway Lagoon all park free ticket
Still thinking when to go
Should i go next saturday?

RM60++ for bungee jump
Should i go for it?

Yes, i like extreme games.

24/07/2011

You never understand me but trying to control my life

You never try to know what we wanted but just want us to follow exactly what you wanted us to do

If you can do that on us

Why you cannot do that on someone that needed it more?

You always say we are very naughty kids

Take a look around at the girls at my age

Am i really naughty and bad girl?

Do i clubbed? Do i drink? Do i gamble? Do i always hangout in midnight never wanted to go home?

Take a look at elder brothers.

Take a look at me.

You are already proud enough of us.

You are such a big smoker and none of us smoke.

You know what cousins said?

They said they can hardly imagine how come child from our family can be such a good kid.

Dad, we are all degree students.

Do you want to break your records cox of younger brother?

I took my UEC paper when i was 17.

I did not do well when i was 16, senior two.

You purposely come talk to me warn me to get a better result.

Now, he is 18.

Yet, his results really kanasai, i closed my eyes during exam also will not get such sucks results.

Look at how you treat younger brother.

Did you ever try to look at him closely?

Tried to talk to him?

Never.

In one whole year, the sentences i talked to you is less than 50 sentences.

I seldom back home.

When i am at home, mum will try to stay with us more.

But do you?

Even we at home, you at home either.

Maybe i wun be able to see you at all in one whole day.

Now, you trying to asked me go back.

Arrange my life for me.

May you please take a look on younger brother first?

Who is the one need you more now?

I am doing just fine.

But obviously he is not.

Give me one good reason why you wanted me to go back and stay home everyday?

Go back and face walls?

Tell me, what for?

Don't tell me you miss me.

You never really give me a call.

You won't even stay home longer time cox i go back home a while after such a long time.

Even if we spoken out, wanted you to stay home longer time.

Ya, i know you love us.

But using the wrong way.

Brighter future

Some people always live in the past

I am looking forward for brighter future

You never felt sorry.

Hopeless.

I am lucky.

20/07/2011

A "Goodnight" before sleep always warm up my heart

I know you are just polite

But thanks anyway

Cox you have no need to

There is a wall in my heart

Who built it?

When it is being built?

Starting to quarantine myself from most of the people

Well, still trying to play around with everyone and have fun

But..

I wanna go home

I wanna go travel

I wanna get away from here

Stay in realistic

Nope

I cant do so anytime as i like

Planning for kk trip in Oct

Anyone interested?

17/07/2011

I know you are diff with others

I know you are imbalance with what happened

But i never were you, i dunno how you feel

Same, you never were me, you never know how i feel

You cant understand the issues i concern of and always think everything are so easy

Ya, maybe for you

Sorry, i do not have such confidence in myself that i am able to overcome everything so easily cox i am not you

You have the potential but not me

多的是我不知道的事

same

多的是你不知道的事

Maybe we were right to break up

Every conversation ends with big quarrel

My throat still soring

Cox yelling and screaming last night

Why you were not there when i needed someone to cheer me up?

You really do seldom reply sms...

Going to penang for training today

Time to be fully utilised

Will be freaking busy

And duwan to involve in anything that upset me

15/07/2011

Looking at photos

Seeing most of the colleagues drunk

Saw most of them get so high

Wondering why i did not try to have a drink of those

Just because someone told me girls better don drink?

Am i such a good baby?

I din even get back to the dance floor

I was scared by some of the colleagues, drunk of course

I stayed aside and look at the crowd

"So, this is how clubbing like"

"Ya"

Both of us stayed aside and look at the crowd

Korean boss drunk and take off shirts and dance

Girls wearing really sexy dancing so high

Wow~

Waited until almost done

Went back to dance floor trying to find others

My honey is just tall enough for me to look for her in the crowd

They asked me where i have been

Yes, i was with someone

Colleagues telling me: Wish to hear good news from you soon

想很大声地说

我不想你了

终于做回我自己了

Long weekend

Long weekend to be ended.. In another few hours..

Fri get back home earliest in these few mths..

As there is rumors saying that due to bersih rally on 9th July,

Lrt may not stop at klcc station started from 7 sth,

Better to belief than nothing,

Went back home early..

Sat stayed home whole day, i am the only stay at my house,

seems like all my hsemates back hometown,

well, seriously don't really have much communication with them,

of cox i dunno whr they went.

Mum and bro take turn to call me,

to ensure that i had been a good girl staying at home not going anywhr.

Sun, still i am the only one at home,

Grab the chance to do hsekeeping,

feels great after that^^

Full-time "housewife" on that day^o^

Went jusco for food restock too of cox~

Night time went ts for hat hunting for mafia night,

after that went Feelings Cafe for dinner~

Thanks dear^^

And take k of yourself at JB

Today~

Purposely took leave for someone,

also an excuse to get away from office.

Today's plan, totally unscheduled.

Last night someone woke me up and told me,

"I will let you know when i reach kl, i am taking 6.50am flight, and now i am really too tired to plan"

Mr, 12.30am you baru reach home after whole day event of cox you r tired la..

A sms in morning 9.30am~ So on time!!

"I am lost at airport"

I jumped up and called find out he is just fine~ =.=''

Such a naughty boy.. Isk..

Met them up at midvalley sushi king~

Mr Kenny Chu and Mr Brian Ho~ Haha~

Like meeting net friends~ *Blush*

Seriously they are really funny, laugh out loud for one whole day~

I miss my own 傻笑 like that..

Thanks to you guys for getting it back^^

Kenny is really so so nice and brian is really amusing^o^

Really had lots of fun today.

And seriously, they can eat and drink alot!!

1st station sushi king for lunch;

2nd stop, Gardens for drinks and 插座 for kenny's galaxy tab,

And of cox photos taking time;

3rd stop, Italianese for teatime? > <

We had pizza and salad and drinks again;

Last stop, Starbucks for drinks and galaxy tab's charging,

His tab really run out of battery very fast> <

Brian gave me half bottle of orange juice as i really cannot drink so much anymore but just wanna have a try,

Well.. Its really orange juice..

So sour!!!

Sour till kenny look at my face expression and laughed > <

End up gave it all back to brian cox he is ok with it> <

Pls imagine we had so many food from 12.30pm till 6pm..

Gain weight for sure T.T

Get myself change my own room's light bulb and starter for very 1st time,

As i always said, girls can be just fine by their own^^

Someone kept nagging me asking someone to help..

I know u worry bout it, but..

It is really simple why do i need to purposely get someone to do it for me?

I can fix it all by myself^o^

I am no longer the little girl that was so dependent on you.

I have to be as independent as i can.

我必须很独立

10/07/2011

Found out hard to cheer myself up anymore

Laugh as much as i can

Did anything that would make myself happy

But seems failed

Why am i always depressed?

Even when i laugh out loud

Deep inside there

Nope, i am not happy

Getting myself rest whole day yesterday

Slept as much as i could

Watching dramas & movies that i never touch for months

"Jin""Boss 2""House"

"The Last Song"

Later "CSI" & "House" to be continued~

Have to go dl those unfinished japanese drama and.. "Vampire diaries"

Yes, i love vampire stories^^

Of course, those stories with handsome and pretty vampires, not those in "Priest" > <

Getting another day of holiday for me tomorrow

Hopefully it will be a great day

As he said: This trip to KL i cannot plan anything cox everything too last minutes and unexpected

Future always unexpected

And yes, i need to find something to do

Make myself busy and concentrate in

And be happy^^

Saw some useful art books & photography books at kinokuniya the other day but the price really *bling bling*

The price hurting my eyes -.-

Why everything have to cost so much now > <

For your all information

I never remove any coway staff from my facebook friendlist

02/07/2011

My 1st Guy Laroche^o^

Super Like It~ Simple and Nice~ My style~ ^o^

Yes, if you can tear it, dun buy~

I can't tear it, so i bought it~ > <

I am officially pk this mth~

And tml to be continue... T.T